Affirmation
Affirmation 1
Affirmation One by Linda Diane Worthy for Freefalling…God’s Angels By My Side "GOD IS STILL A GOD OF MIRACLES"
If you have already read my book, Freefalling…God’s Angels By My Side, God declared victory in mid June 2023 and blessed me with the most joyful gift of interpretive dancing.
I erroneously thought that, OK, I have lived and survived all these years with God blessing me with miracle after miracle, not all of which I included in my book. But God let me know, He was NOT finished with me yet.
About a month or so ago, I went unaware during the night. I apparently went out to the living room and sustained a very bad fall, unaware. The next morning, I could not use either arm from my elbows to shoulders. Having had surgery in 2008 for a right arm only Shoulder Impingement Syndrome, I knew what had happened to me. Somehow, in an unaware state, I tripped (nothing to trip on) and fell hard. I apparently put out both arms to break the fall. The next morning I knew something had happened when I could not use my arms.
I then went through the process of xrays, then a physical therapy referral (which did not work), and finally MRI’s. They showed I did need surgery. I showed the MRI results to my physical therapist. Then, the week of February 3, 2025, I saw my physical therapist at my weekly visit. Suddenly, I felt this strange sensation in my shoulders. In front of my physical therapist I moved my arms in ways that are impossible to someone who had documented (via MRI and exam) shoulder impingement syndrome. My therapist fell silent.
I calmly said, “Well, you’ve just seen a miracle.” He agreed and documented it all in my physical therapy records. When I got home, the orthopedic surgeon’s office called. Apparently, they hadn’t received my message that I was canceling my surgery. So, I told them why and they documented my miracle in my medical records, plus my PCP documented it my medical records at Evergreen Health in Redmond, Washington. Again, another documented miracle.
And as usual, I asked God, “Why me?” I didn’t get a direct answer except a strong feeling that God still had much work to do in my life.
I thank God for His mercies and blessings and miracles.
I serve a mighty God.
Affirmation 2
"When friends and family reject you during difficult times."
Sometimes, we all have our little or major secrets that can totally obliterate your marriage, family and/or friends. As children of God, we all try hard to just forget it with the hopes if we say nothing, it will be forgotten, totally forgetting that God knows our hearts.
It can be one of the hardest things to do in the world is to acknowledge our sins, major AND minor, to our family and friends. We want people to look at us in a good way. However, this is NOT as God commands us to do. You may have to pray for His help for you to say the hard words you need to say. Some things to remember are, it’s pretty hard to move forward if you just ignore God.
From John 3:20 in the Bible, it says, “For whenever our heart condemns us, God is greater than our heart, and He knows everything.”
One day, all that was once done in secret, will come to light. You can lose your marriage and family or friends, bringing immediate shame, low self-esteem, or even self-hatred. This is a common denominator for many of us. We are to love our neighbors as ourselves. So why is this Bible area that we, as sinners, pretend to forget or actually refuse to ask for forgiveness for things minor to major?
Sometimes, I think whatever we have done is so bad that God can never forget or forgive. This is NOT true. We can call it whatever we want to soothe ourselves, but it seems impossible to forget, because the stakes are so high. So hard to hear, and harder to believe.
My own recommendation was to take time to analyze just one (although there are more) thing that gets in the way of life. I could look back to my very young childhood and without blaming anyone, I suffered from self esteem issues and bought a book called the Self Esteem Workbook. I’ve gone to enough counselors through my journey so I wanted to try this first.
It is NEVER too late. Remember, God will NEVER let you down. Never.
Affirmation 3
"When friends and family reject you during difficult times."
I have lived this for over 12 years during my spiritual warfare which even i didn’t know about until God declared victory over 12 years later.
Because everyone knew I was experiencing one of the worst pains year in and year out (based on a rare diagnosis from one of the leading neurosurgeons in the world, and because I would go in and out of unaware states (think Ambien), everyone assumed i was crazy or mentally ill, except for my precious dad who lived next door until his death in January 2018, I felt and heard their very low and hateful opinions of me.
My neuropsychologist also was a weekly sounding board and reassurance for many years. Talk therapy was what I needed most.
Evil things were done to me, like one relative lied to the hospital and I was refused the right to say goodbye or see my mom before or after her death. They refused to tell me where my mom was buried.
That same relative hired an incompetent lawyer to have me be placed in the state mental hospital and lose all my rights. Fortunately the lawyer was too inexperienced to remember to serve me with papers, so I was a no show and my case was dismissed.
I often asked God why. I felt lonely, abandoned, and despised and I had no idea why.
Not once did anyone bother to go to the internet and research what long term non stop intense pain with no cure can mean to the patient. Their personality changes for good. And not for the better.
I did a lot of solid medical research but everyone refused to believe me or research it themselves. Have you ever felt so lonely and abandoned that you sometimes think ending your life was the only way left? Please don’t act on those thoughts.
Have you ever felt that nothing you do or say matters?
If you take prescription meds, do people call you a drug addict because they refuse to understand if your body needs those meds, there is no way medically for you to become addicted?
Friends, it is a hard and lonely place to be when nothing you say or do is ever good enough.
Even if you’ve lived a brilliant and fulfilling life before this happened to you, there can be simply no way to cope.
Many people did evil things to and against me, and not one has ever apologized. But that’s ok because I know forgiving them is for me, regardless of what they do or say. No one bothered to show me love except my dad (and my one friend). After my dad died, I was told grieving any longer than a month was childish.
Now, I don’t know your experiences. But if any of mine sound similar to you, trust me. My heart cries for you. So. What do you do? Pray.
Pray that God will lead you to a trusting friend (He did for me) who will listen to you, care about you, pray, send texts, calls or emails. Or even just meet for lunch.
Try not to dwell on what is happening. Be ready to forgive them when the time is right, but expect nothing from them. Keep a journal and try to write about happy memories so when someone is trying to destroy you, you can read your happy memories and know that once you were happy, one day you will regain the strength to just ignore them and live your life as best you can.
It is so easy to want and fantasize revenge. Don’t do it. Never forget God is always there for us if we are His children. And if I could survive the hatred and evilness while undergoing intense spiritual warfare, well, know that you can come out on the other side victorious.
I’ve shared some very deep and painful beyond belief things that I never put in my book because I feel deeply my affirmations are to be pure and honest, and that they can bring hope and comfort to those who need it. If you need to talk, reach out to me at miraclesanddance@gmail.com. I will listen and respond as I check my email every day. I care.
God WILL see you through this in His perfect timing.
Affirmation 4
What do you do when everyone thinks you should be perfect and feel joyful all the time?
Ok. I wrote a book about my 12 plus year intense spiritual battle. Freefalling…God’s Angels By My Side.
It took me 10 years to write it. God revealed to me mid june 2023 that satan approached Him to destroy my so called perfect life and God gave him permission.
Between pain and rejection and too many heavily documented miracles to count, I think no one knew what to do with me.
When in non stop 24/7 pain for 10 years until I was. prescribed a better pain med, I slept up to 20 hours a day to avoid the pain. When in pain, one of the worst pains known to mankind, while going in and out of aware/unaware states (think Ambien) along with the pain that would somehow cause me to drop to the floor in a coma that could last hours or days, I found it natural in such pain to be a mean person, the total opposite of the real me.
I became hated, lied about, ignored, with only my dad to show me before his death in 2018, that he was the only one who ever loved me unconditionally. No body else even bothered to try and understand the total angst I was going through year after year.
So when I ask my question, “What do you do when everyone thinks you should be perfect and joyful all the time?” It’s based on my journey and that incredible miracle of dance that fills me with joy. It’s Ike winning the lottery in a way. Everyone expects you to be this joyous person all the time. No one sees me when I still feel hurt and rejected at times. When I cry myself to sleep for various painful reasons.
I go out in public and if I feel depressed and feel like I have to pretend like I feel joyous when I just want to go home to bed and cry and to sleep. Well, from the start I determined my affirmations would show the honest and real me. Extraordinarily blessed but still human. So you go to church and most people have their happy face on. Has this ever happened to you?
Some churches make it impossible to show in public that you feel that you’re dying inside. Still, the mask remains. Has this ever happened to you? Sometimes it’s just easier to stay home from church so you don’t feel fake and you don’t feel judged.
I think we can all agree I have lived in this state since Feb 2011. It’s a hard place to be.
The only advice I can offer is find a close Christian friend of the same sex and meet with them to be open and honest. Never say too much until you know you can trust each other.
Devise a code phrase that only the two of you know so if contacted by other and they state the code phrase, you must take it seriously and find a private place if possible to listen to them. Don’t offer advice even if they threaten suicide. Ask if you can quickly and privately pray for them without judgment.
Then put and keep them on your daily prayer list especially until the crisis has passed.
It’s hard to be on either side. I just think it’s okay to show the real you without judgment. Train both men and women and teenagers how to deal with this. Same sex only.
I Cor 10:13 is my lifetime verse. God will always make a way to bear it and escape from it.
My heart is with you. Should you need to confidentially share, please send me an email to Linda Diane Worthy at miraclesanddance@gmail.com and know it’s safe to share with me. If you’re a guy, I will put you in touch with a wonderful Christian man who attended seminary.
He will not judge you.
So just know there are options if you cannot get what you need at your own church.
Affirmation 5
How to be grateful when you feel imperfect
From my own experience, I know how hard it is to be grateful when nothing is going right in your life. When you feel unloved and deserted, left alone and ignored. When you feel despised.
Yeah, I’m not saint. I suffered greatly during my 12 plus years of spiritual warfare I didn’t even know God brought me through it, when satan asked God’s permission to destroy me. Think Job from the old Testament.
Some people think I am “all that” because I wrote my book Freefalling…God’s Angels By My Side. I most decidedly am not. I still stumble and fall in the Godly sense. There are days i feel unloved and angry at myself for blowing it. Yet again.
And today I was thinking about all this and I realized how imperfect I’ve been. And yet, God still loves me. He knows and loves me in spite of my damaged heart. Sometimes I feel guilty at how self centered i was, just trying to survive. It was so hard. I’d feel guilty. Hated. Undeserving. But I found i HAD to let go off these feelings at the alter of God. Still imperfect, I struggle… then I remember that God loves me and He will never leave me. Sometimes I have to keep remembering that in spite of my falls and imperfections, He still loves me.
Affirmation 5
How to be grateful when you feel imperfect
From my own experience, I know how hard it is to be grateful when nothing is going right in your life. When you feel unloved and deserted, left alone and ignored. When you feel despised.
Yeah, I’m not saint. I suffered greatly during my 12 plus years of spiritual warfare I didn’t even know God brought me through it, when satan asked God’s permission to destroy me. Think Job from the old Testament.
Some people think I am “all that” because I wrote my book Freefalling…God’s Angels By My Side. I most decidedly am not. I still stumble and fall in the Godly sense. There are days i feel unloved and angry at myself for blowing it. Yet again.
And today I was thinking about all this and I realized how imperfect I’ve been. And yet, God still loves me. He knows and loves me in spite of my damaged heart. Sometimes I feel guilty at how self centered i was, just trying to survive. It was so hard. I’d feel guilty. Hated.
Undeserving.
But I found i HAD to let go off these feelings at the alter of God. Still imperfect, I struggle… then I remember that God loves me and He will never leave me. Sometimes I have to keep remembering that in spite of my falls and imperfections, He still loves me.